Woop woop! I cleared my first hurdle!!!

Wow - what an amazing feeling. I went to a wedding on Saturday and didn't lapse! Yey!!! In all fairness I did leave the wedding and went home while they were eating their meal - but I was there during the 'tea' in the afternoon which included trays and trays of ham sandwiches, fairy cakes and cups of tea. I sailed through that.. but trying to avoid champagne during the speeches was a bit tricky... what is it about people trying to thrust a glass into your hand at every opportunity! Anyway - after feigning hardcore medication and alcoholism, they eventually left me alone. My only tough bit was when I returned later in the evening for the disco, and had an ex-next door neighbour drunkenly groping me and trying to force wedding cake into my mouth!! Hahahaha. Not my finest moment really when I told him where he could shove his fruitcake. Hey ho, lol.

So, wedding - CHECK!

I went to my second weigh in last night and I've lost another 3lbs. Whoopee! My scales at home are convinced that I have lost more weight than her's, so I am going to try and stop weighing myself at home before I go because I get really excited - and then look really miserable when she starts congratulating me on my fantastic week's weight loss. Humphf.

My second week was quite tough as far as cravings were concerned. I think about food all the bloody time!! Today my colleague brought a tuna and sweetcorn into the office and munched through it with surround sound pleasure. I almost pulled over a filing cabinet in my haste to get outside armed with my fags and a sneer. It is definitely not hunger that is getting to me - just my damn brain making my life so hard.

I think it is all stemming from the fact that I am getting bored of the foodpacks. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy them and actually look forward to certain flavours... but I would sell my soul, or someone's beloved pet (preferably the yappy four legged one from next door), for something I can really get my teeth into.

Some people have said that they feel 'released' from the bonds of food - that they see fast food (for example) and feel they no longer need it, and they are happy with the realisation that they will never have a relationship with burgers/chips/KFC ever again. THEY ARE FREE!! But... all I have found myself doing is counting down how long until I can have one. In fact, each time I see something I really really want, I just remind myself that I'll be able to have one soon - it's only five and a half months. Lol. Not the attitude I'm sure... thank God for the counselling!! I nearly did the Cambridge rather than the LighterLife diet, but know now that it would have been pointless losing the weight without some serious rewiring about why I eat.

Oooh, another high point from my last week was when I went shopping for my wedding outfit! I grabbed a size 20 dress in Debenhams... and it was too big!! YEAH!! So, I took my life in my hands, glancing left and right and snuck an 18 into my cubicle... and it was too loose around the back!!!! With a very wobbly, and slightly hyper trill, I summoned the dressing room assistant and asked her to bring me a SIZE SIXTEEN!!!!! She tutted at me, popped her chewing gum and sashayed off... ... ... Ok, ok, so the 16 was a bit optimistic... it didn't go over my rather sizeable arse... but I was still buzzing and had to secure the back of the dress with a couple of safety pins to stop slippage! Yeah!!

Ok - I will shoot off now... might give a black tea a whirl and see if I can stomach it - personally, I think it sounds revolting, but I am prepared to be proven wrong.

Hope you are all having a wonderful day!