Milk Week and other stories

Well, I am in week thirteen, and in the world of Lighter Life that can only mean one thing.... MILK WEEK! This week we are meant to drink about one and a half litres of milk each day - by mixing all our shakes with the milk, and having the odd glass of milk/cup of milky tea etc... it's been lovely, although I have been a bit of a rebel and not stuck to it to the letter - I've only been having ONE shake with milk, and the odd cuppa. I only lost one pound last week, and I REALLY wanted to lose my last two this week to hit 3 stone in Foundation - but it was looking unlikely based on last week, and the fact that people can fall out of ketosis in milk week... we'll see what happens on Sunday.

I have been feeling pretty positive this week, although I have had a couple of funny tummys, which I can only attribute to the dairy intake (I've used normal semi-skimmed cows milk, rather than soya) and because of this, I had a bit of a panic attack on Weds evening while I was waiting in the waiting room at the vets with my cat. I used to have debilitating panic disorder that effected all facets of my life - but then, strangely, when my dad died last Boxing Day, they stopped. I've had the odd flutter, but nothing full blown - until Weds. I have always known my panics were connected to my IBS - I'd get a funny tummy, and then panic about getting to a loo, losing control etc, which would put me in a stressful mind set which would then manifest in physical symptoms of getting a bad tummy... and so it went on. So anyway - on Weds I had a couple of 'run to the loo' moments, and remembering this at the vets sent me into a panic spiral and I had to leave before Leroy had even been seen - I felt awful.

Anyway - I am going back this afternoon - so hopefully I will cope better this time. Grrr - I really thought I had come through all this panicky stuff - it is so obviously connected to my IBS, so I am really looking forward to Route to Management (the slow re-introduction to food) to see what triggers it and what doesn't - this could be the start of managing not only my weight, but my panics too... that would be incredible!!! But baby steps... can't have too high hopes...

Aww, just had a phone call from a friend - she is going to come swimming and for a spa pamper with me tomorrow - awww, can't wait! She is a single mum of two little ones and never had any time to herself, and my health spa has given me some 'friend' passes - so i'm taking her with me, she is so excited - a proper girlie day - woohoo!!

ANYWAY -

All going pretty well, aside from the odd funny tummy and panic - the other 95% of the time I have felt on top of the world emotionally, so fingers crossed it lasts!!

Will write more after I've had my weigh in on Sunday - Sunday night is also my last meeting with the Foundation group, so it's going to be all change from next week - i'll officially be in 'Developers'! Yey! I did it!!

Anna xx