Just a quickie - but thought I would check in. It has been a couple of days since 'that horrible night' and I have stuck to my guns and not had even the sneakiest lapse since. I genuinely wanted to stay strong, but was aware that I'd done the whole "that's it!" thing each time, determined to get back to the programme.... so anyway - I am doing it this time... I know it has only been two days, but - frankly - my lapses had become quite regular before Christmas, and I have had opportunities to eat - so I'm feeling much more in control of the whole situation.
I just re-read my last post as well... the bit about sticking my fingers down my throat was a bit hardcore - sorry about that... it wasn't for any 'removing the food' reasons (I am absolutely not condoning it as a way out or an easy option), I was just in the midst of such agony I didn't know what else to do to bring the trapped air 'up'... it was scary, and didn't work anyway... just wanted to clear that up... I've never done it before, and won't do it again. I've learnt my lesson - stodgey fast food is the enemy!!
Night all - Anna x
Monday, 29 December 2008
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Hi! You've said that you were feeling very emotional over Christmas and you've said you've lapsed - but you haven't put the two things together! - seems like a direct link to me. Don't be so hard on yourself. You are allowed to be upset about your loss. It's just that there are other ways to express it. Coley x
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